"look into my eyes..you will see..what you mean to me" !

I really saw it happening for the first time with my friend which left me reeling in disbelief. He is one of my childhood buddies who had come down to India for a 3 week visit from the US. I asked him how he could do such a thing to which he said its very common in the US. He also said "Its every man's right to satisfy his needs". I was left in this eternal state of shock, shame and curiosity. For sure every man in mid-twenties has his needs but to satisfy them in such ways was profound to say the least. Somewhere deep inside I also wanted to satisfy my curiosity.


I met this man on a saturday evening in one of those cross roads in Jayanagar and told him what I wanted. He looked at me and asked "First time sir?".
Deeply embarrassed at being asked such a question, I said yes and he could make out the tension on my face. He calmed me down saying I have approached the right person and he only delivers the best and the safest. He said the best ones are going to cost half a grand and a week to arrange. I contemplated whether all this was worth half a grand. Suddenly I was overwhelmed with thoughts on what I was about to do, images of my youth, images of my parents and what they had taught me as a child, the concept of right and wrong, the great Indian traditions and so on. I felt like walking away with shame but the curiosity was too much to hold back and I shook his hands. He asked to return a week later to the same place.


I was waiting with my car for the man at the agreed place. I was never so tensed and was sweating profusely when he came and asked "ready to change your life sir?". I muttered something under my breath and handed him the cash. I made her sit at the back of my car and drove away from that place as fast as I could. Still under shock, I was not sure what to do next. I kept looking at her in the mirror and hoped she would say something but she never even uttered a word. Why would she anyway. That was not part of the deal. A talking one would probably cost a grand and I was in no mood to have a conversation anyway. I was contemplating whether to go home with her or to my friends place. After paying half a grand, I decided it was worth to be taken home.


I dragged her inside so that the neighbours wouldn't catch me and made her sit on a chair in my room. She just sat there all innocent, staring straight ahead and waiting for me to make the move. I wanted to call my friend up for some advice but decided against it. I did not want him to think that I dint know what to do. I mean its embarrassing if the word spread ! I would end up being the laughing-stock in my circles. But to tell you the truth, I dint know where to begin. After washing myself up, I slowly approached her. She was indeed beautiful. I took her in my arms and started to remove the outer clothing with my trembling hands. She was still speechless and just let me do whatever I wanted. She was soft and suttle inside and I was scared that my rough hands would hurt her. I was trying to be smooth but my trembling hands were making a mess out of the situation. I finally released her of all the protections, lifted her up and brought her near my face. With one swift move, I opened my eyes wide and placed her inside it perfectly. I did it !!! I finally migrated to contact lenses !


Amen !